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[ Will's disappearance has been slowly taking its toll on Jonathan. He can tell just how much it's tearing the family apart, with how detached his mother has been lately. He knows she partially blames him, for not being home. And with how absent she has been lately, that just leaves Jonathan to deal with the funeral arrangements.

He hates it. Part of him wants this all to be over with, to bury his brother and move on, but another part of him hopes that maybe his mother's right.

Maybe there is something more to this, maybe there's a chance Will could still be alive. But then that means he's in danger, and --

And the last thing he needs on top of everything else is to get in the middle of Nancy Wheeler and Steve Harrington's relationship. Those photos weren't meant to ever see the light of day, nor were Nancy and Steve ever supposed to even notice him. As much as he's been enjoying the sympathy from Nancy, he can tell by the way Steve sneers at him, that it's only a matter of time before the camera isn't the thing that gets destroyed.

He just doesn't expect that day to happen so soon. The next thing he knows, Jonathan's throwing a punch, defending Nancy's honor, despite the fact that Jonathan knows he's the last person who should be making any judgment calls after taking photos without their consent. But he's seeing red, and he just wants it to stop. ]

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( It's probably the best response Jonathan is going to get from Steve. It draws out a look of surprise on Jonathan's face, because he expected a much more volatile reaction from Steve, considering how they had been at each other's throats in the alleyway. And now... )

Yeah...easier that way.

( He tears his eyes away from Steve. He never expected Steve would ever reciprocate in a hundred years. He knows, being an outcast, that there just aren't that many people like him, and Steve has made it very clear he's interested in girls. Still, Jonathan can't help feeling a little disappointed. Maybe a little relieved, that his secret is out. Too many feelings cropping up at once, all struggling to rise to the surface. )

I"m not gonna...I mean she's nice and all, but...she should be with you.

(Steve doesn't really know how to respond to this type of situation. He's never had another guy confess his feelings for him before, shit he's never had another man admire him in such a way that isn't either envy or friendship. He doesn't want to say too much more in fear that he'll lash out on accident. Jonathan appears to be in a fragile state and Steve doesn't want to make this worse. )

You got a better idea?

(Steve would rather forget about all of this. Ignore the fact that Jonathan has feelings for him, that he took inappropriate photos of Steve. Unfortunately it's not going to be easy just to pretend and forget the brutal truth that lingers over the two teens. At the mention of Nancy, Steve shifts uncomfortably. His own gaze years from Jonathan only to stare rather lifelessly out the window.)

If she'll forgive me.

( Jonathan opens his mouth to respond, but shuts it again. Nothing he has to suggest will be worth it. He just needs to get over Steve and let the jock forget about all of this. Let him move on with Nancy, while Jonathan retreats back to the shadows.

It's safer for everyone involved. )

No, I don't.

( He sighs as he avoids looking at Steve, even though he wants to so fucking badly. His eyes always seem to be drawn to him, just like every other girl in Hawkins High. )

She'll forgive you, man. She likes you. She...she only likes me because I was being nice to her, and helping her with Barb. When all of this is over, you'll see, she'll go back to you.

(Steve assumed as much. They didn't exactly have that may options in the matter to begin with. It all boiled down to no one finding out Jonathan's actual motive. For the safety of himself and his family. It's the best Steve could come up with right now when his mind was already racing from everything else that had been presented into the open. Barb's disappearance, Nancy's infatuation with Jonathan, monsters in fucking Hawkins.

Byers has a crush on him.

Jesus Christ. )

Maybe we can figure something else out later? When we can actually focus and think.

(When they aren't in the middle of a monster hunt. He lets out an annoyed sigh as Jonathan continues to go on about Nancy. Steve wants to believe that she'll want to get back together with him because she truly wants too but deep inside his gut he fears that's not her true intentions.)

Only because you might not be an option. She's-

She fucking likes you....

( Jonathan perks right up when Steve suggests they can figure something else out later. It's...well it's not a complete let down, and for the moment he'll take what he can get. He nods in agreement. They really can't be worrying about all of this when they have a monster to hunt. )

Okay. Later. After all of this is over.

( He frowns, thinking about Nancy. How he wishes it were that easy. He hadn't meant for the wires to get so crossed, and it was easier letting Steve think that he was competition instead of...well, all of this, the jumbled mess that was the reality of the situation. )

Trust me, there's nothing special about me. ( He smiles self deprecatingly. ) She'll figure that out in the end.

(Steve can't make any promises that they can resolve this sudden surprise but he can at least offer Jonathan a bit of comfort to ease the tension in the air. Right now thru need to focus on finding this creature and keeping Nancy safe in the process. Then maybe the two teens can have a decent conversation about Jonathan's sexuality. )

After all this.

(Regardless Jonathan's true intentions, their is a rift in Steve and Nancy’s relationship due to it. Steve isn't so sure he can mend them back together after everything that has happened, what was said and done.)

Obviously she seems something or else she would have walked away already.

( That's probably the best he's going to get, so Jonathan accepts it, for now. Even if he has to come to terms with the hell he's going to have to endure once all of this is over and move on, then so be it. He and Steve can just go their separate ways, and Jonathan will pretend this whole mortifying conversation didn't happen.

Steve can just go back to being with Nancy, Jonathan can let her down gently, and he'll find something -- someone -- else. But first, he needs to find Will, and put all of this to rest. )

If she, you know. If she knows there's not a chance for us? His voice wavers as he speaks. ( He'd trust Nancy with that bit of information. She isn't cruel like the others at school. ) Not that it matters because, well, you're not -- ( He stops himself, forces himself to look away, feeling like a fucking idiot for even talking about this. ) I mean, all she needs to know is that all we're ever gonna be is friends, right?

(That would be the best option for both boys. Steve would much rather put all of this and Jonathan Byers behind him. Forget this awkward conversation even took place and try his damn hardest to repair his relationship with Nancy. He shifts a little more in the passager's due to being a bit uncomfortable, his mind still deep in thought. He needs to focus on this supposed monster and keeping Nancy safe from it.

That was the goal here and yet-

Jonathan fucking Byers.)

You know if you're comfortable you can talk to her about all of this, right? She isn't going to be cruel towards you. (Not like he had been back in the alley. Nancy was kind, she was accepting and caring. )

She's not going to blab about your secret. She's got a really pure heart. She's definitely way to good for someone like me.

( Jonathan just nods. He's not sure if he's ready to share this with Nancy yet, but maybe after they find Will and find out what happened to Barb. Once this is all behind them, they all should really sit down and talk about this. It's not fair to any of them to carry on like nothing happened. )

I'll think about it. First things first, though. Let's go get Nance and hunt this monster...yeah?

( Not that he's eager to face this thing head on, but every minute that ticks by is another minute that could potentially lead to Will's death. If he really is still alive, then Jonathan knows what he needs to do. )

(Steve will leave the choice in Jonathan's hands. He isn't going to press because it's not his decision to make but talking to Nancy would at least release some of the tension built up between the three. She would also give Jonathan someone to talk to, an actual supportive and genuine friend. Steve isn't going to speak that outloud, he's sure Jonathan already knows that much. )

Right. The monster.

(How could he forget? Destroy the monster and hopefully life would go back to normal.)

Don't get yourself killed.

( With that out of the way, or at least as out of the way as it can be for now, Jonathan pulls the car back onto the road, staying silent the rest of the way to the Wheelers. But when they arrive, they find that they're not the first to arrive. In fact, they can't even get close because of cars blocking off Maple Street, directing traffic elsewhere.

So Jonathan parks near the blockade, but it's still close enough that he can see the Wheeler house. Whatever authority blocked off the road was clearly interested in something over there. )

Shit...Nancy. You think she's okay?

( He looks to Steve for reassurance. Knowing that the feds or whoever this was had staged Will's death and tried to make Hopper look like he was on a bender, if they knew Nancy had some idea of what was really going on...she might be strong but even she wouldn't be able to take on the government single-handed. )

We should get her out of there.

(Good.

Now that this awkwardness is behind them they never have to address the obvious ever again. Only its not that easy is it? Steve can't just shake the thought of Jonathan Byers sneaking pictures of him without his content. That Jonathan Byers has taken a liking to him and its much deeper than just a bromance.

The sudden blockage from the Wheeler's home snaps Steve from his thoughts and that nauseated feeling sinks back in while Jonathan finds a decent parking place. Whom ever has taken force on the Wheeler home has Steve fully alert and concerned. His first thought is of course Nancy. Was she possibly in some trouble or worse?

He's already opening the door and stepping out of the car while Jonathan is asking the question. )

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